It sucks to be a container for negativity. The real suck of it is you often don’t realize that’s what you’re becoming–you have to have someone else tell you. And then you look back and realize that yeah, that’s exactly what’s been happening.
What does it mean to be a container for negativity? For me it means that for some or many reasons I don’t want to let go of my negativity. I hold onto it like it’s necessary for me. Attempts to be positive feel like I’m just going through motions, like I’m caricaturing positive emotions and actions from other people.
I don’t know what the answer is. I know that all things change, and this is no different. I connect and ground and move forward. Negativity or positivity do not define me, they are just momentary characteristics going through the same flux and flow that everything in the universe is going through.